Little Bear

My lover and I have had a secret code ever since we met. Whenever we want to get each other’s attention, we send each other the little bear emoji: 🐻.

I find that it represents him well: a little wild (sometimes), indoorsy (when it’s cold out), enticing and majestic (all the time).

When I talk about him to my friends, I always find it difficult to clearly define our relationship. He’s more than a friend, but he’s not a boyfriend. He’s more than a fuck buddy, but we’re not really dating either. I haven’t found the right word for it yet.

But what I do know is that he knows how to warm up my heart … and my body.

Let me set the scene: It’s April 2020. Pandemic, lockdown, physical distancing, you know the drill.

One night, curled up in bed under the sheets, I see a little bear suddenly appear on my phone. Instant chills rush over me. I know I can’t go to his house tonight. He knows he won’t be coming to my place tonight either. Not anytime soon, anyway. Damned lockdown.

I crave human warmth so badly. His human warmth.

Him – 🐻

Him – I’m in bed just thinking of you 😉 ….

Me – Oh reeaally? And what were you thinking about, exactly? I’m intrigued…

Him – Hmmmmmm I was just thinking about the last time you joined me late in my bed 🙂 Before lockdown. Do you remember? I heard you come in quietly, slip off your boots and your coat, and tiptoe to my room. I could hear the floor in the hallway creak a little and your footsteps getting closer and closer to me… You silently pulled off your clothes in the dark, but somehow I felt I could hear each article of clothing brushing against your skin and dropping to the floor…mmmmmmm

Me – oh yeahhhh? And then what 😉

Him – Then you slipped under the sheets and pressed up against me. It was heavenly. Your skin was still a little cold, because you had just come in and it was -20°C outside and I could feel the little goosebumps all over you….and your nipples hard against me, It felt so…electric. Your chill contrasted against the warmth of my body. I remember you snuggled up and pressed into me closer and I gently warmed your body.

Me – 🐻 …I remember that very well indeed. You’re bringing back the chills now…. I can feel them. It was perfect. It had been such a long time since we had seen each other. It was so good to find each other again! That longing in my body finally finding a home in you…

Him – It was sooo nice.

Your breasts pressing against my chest, your breath on my skin… it turned me on so much. I want your breasts against me right now… I want to caress, and lick them so bad…

Me – mmmm I’d let you do that for as long as you want

Him – I think it would be for hours…

Me – Hours sounds fun 😉 But I’d make you take a break so I could take you in my mouth…

Me – *sigh* This conversation is making me want to touch you so bad. Your beautiful skin that I love so much. I want to caress you with my tongue, my hands, and then again my tongue. In an infinite loop. I want to taste every bit of you and run my hands over every inch of you…

Him – Wow. Yes. I want that so bad! I need that! I need to feel your skin against mine.

Me – Me too. This is agony. Beautiful agony!! I want to get lost in the thousands of comforting, sensual caresses, full of desire, as we’ve always done so well. It’s crazy how well our bodies react together.

Him – Right?! I want to see you. The curve of your neck, your beautiful hair falling down around your face, your lips – moist and just waiting for me, your breasts!! Oh your breasts that you know I love so much. I want it all. I want your belly, your thighs…and everything in between 😉 Everything.

Me – You want to see me, huh?… Well…I can perhaps help you with that. You want me to send you a pic?

Him – 🐻🐻🐻🐻🐻🐻🐻 !!!!!!!!!!!

I take off my shirt and lie down on my bed. I try different angles. From the front, from the side, my mouth slightly open, my hand or my hair hiding my breasts a little, filter, no filter, a look that says “I’m sensual but I’m not trying too hard”. Breezy. It’s always the same challenge with sexy selfies: you want to look cute and sexy, but without looking as though you’re trying too hard. Kind of like an “I woke up like this”, but applied to a night selfie. I end up choosing a photo where I find myself beautiful and press send…then I wait. Anticipation.

Him – Oh wow, oh wow you’re so hot! I have chills. This is giving me so many ideas… I miss your body and your mouth and your pussy. I crave how wet you get when my fingers reach for it.

I want to brush my fingers against you, gently graze your belly and trail down to your thighs…I love that feeling when your pelvis trembles because you can’t wait for me to take you with my fingers and my tongue.

Me – OMG yes I want that!

Him – Butttt I think I’ll tease you and make you wait a bit hehe. Just as you like it, because we have all night long…

This conversation is as exciting as it is unbearable. I put down my phone and slip my hand in my underwear. I’m already wet. I can’t believe the effect he has on me, just with his words. Imagine in person! Damned lockdown.

We went on like this until the wee hours of the morning. Hot words, naughty photos, sexy post-lockdown plans to stimulate our imagination and our bodies, which don’t hibernate. 🐻